When her daughter messed up, this mother knew where the attack was coming from and how to combat it.
Dancehall-ragga artist, Zabuli was raised by a christian mother and Muslim father. She got expelled in her senior four (4) however, completed her studies at Makerere University with a Bachelors degree in Education.
Her wrong decisions in life have left scars which she says would never have healed had it not been for a praying mother who knew the real healer and mender of broken hearts.
Zabuli shared her testimony during ‘Power FM Presents’ on Thursday at Watoto Church.
She narrates;
My father had taken us to a Muslim school with my brother. We reached there and life was really tough…we did not want to become Muslim. They were segregating on us. When my brother got sick, I received news that he had collapsed in the toilet and no body cared because they thought he was a Christian in a Muslim school. I grew a bitter heart towards Muslims, I forgave.. yes but, as a child, I knew that when somebody is sick, regardless of their religion, you help them because it is human nature. I actually got expelled from that school for not going for prayers in the mosque.
When her father got to know about the expulsion, it was like I had pulled out his heart.
My mom got to know about it in my second term when we were doing mocks. She could not believe when she was called to school She just broke down.
Denounced by father
I run away from home because my father had denounced me. This drove me into doing stupid things I don’t recommend and I’m not proud of. I’m just saying this because you can watch the decisions you make in the name of a group, in the name of who cares about tomorrow. Tomorrow you are going to sit in the same place and are going to hate yourself if you made the wrong decision. And at that, I started fighting at school. I dropped subjects that were essential like chemistry in the name of ‘who cares if i fail, it is my future.’
These were all people thinking the best for me but I always chose the other way. When I messed up, I broke a lot of peoples lives because they really had faith in me. I took down with me some innocent lives of children who didn’t know what I was doing… Some don’t have a life up to today, some even died out of stupidity.
It doesn’t make sense when you have a mother very busy struggling, putting her life on hold for you but, you are very busy doing what is contrary. He generation didn’t get it right, she is trying to pay a price for you, and you have also gotten a chance to make it right for her but you are taking it down the drain because you want to be cool.
My mother loved me damaged and she loved my father, the same man who has also damaged her… I saw them fighting to the extent that blood was all over the place. I was supposed to have been a child who is understanding but no, for selfish reasons, for wanting to be loved. Sometimes you don’t know what to do in such circumstances, but it doesn’t justify the wrong decisions you make to correct another. One wrong led to the next one. Next thing I knew, I was pregnant.
As if that was not enough, we went for an abortion. I did, and I’m not proud. My stupid decision cost a child’s death. And I know God forgave me. Some people are afraid of such storied because they think they will be rejected. But out of that brokenness, I met a man called Jesus.
Making mends with God
Under medication one might think you are drugged, I just told God I am broken, I have done so may bad things and there is no justification for my mistakes. But father, If you are faithful enough to be the mum my mother told me you are – a God who forgives, who is unconditional in his loves, give me one more chance.
I never looked back. 2015 I decided to make amends with God and have been serving ever since. Some people watch me perform or sing and think, she is crazy but they don’t know the kind of love God showed me, what war tones I hit because I have known days when I was hungry for months. I have learnt to sleep when my blood is clean, learnt how to fast and pray.
There is that one chance I have to stand at every platform I am given, and I’m not planing to stop giving it my best because I was forgiven when I didn’t love my own self. I’m not ashamed to say that I’m a christian who has been forgiven. I will never stop telling my story – every one needs to know there is a god who loves us and gives second chances.
A mother who fights her battles on her knees
Never underestimate the power of a prayerful mother. Had she given up on me like everybody in my clan, I wouldn’t be blessing lives the way I am today. I wouldn’t have purpose, but thank God for a praying mother.
I call my self a woman of steel, not by mistake, but because I have stood the test of time and have loved a God who has never failed me. I say this unapologetically as the world is watching, I’m not going to stop until I see the king of Glory come back.
I will not stop to serve him if there is still a girl committing a lot of fornication out there. I will not put my foot up till all the drug addicts have come to Christ – until the whole world gets to know about who Jesus is. I do not care of it is going to take me the whole life time. until the day he calls me back home to glory, I am going to stand and make Him proud of me.
When no one prays
Before I knew Christ, I had a woman I call my mom. That woman prayed even when no body believed in me. She stood, I give it up for every mother who prays for her children. I salute you with all my heart. I salute every mother, that has stood when no body believed in their children. And this is a caution, if you do not pray for you children, somebody is going to destroy their future and it is not going to be God.
marvin@ugchristiannews.com
